Sometimes God has a different path in store for us. After being diagnosed with POF, I set out on a journey to "repair" my body and get pregnant naturally. Somewhere along the line, although pristine health and self care is my goal, the necessity to "prove" the doctors wrong became less important and we sought the perfect solution to grow our family. We decided on Embryo Donation / Adoption. Read about our journey. Blessings!

Why so sad?

Feb. 8, 2016

Can I blame the hormones? Yeesh! I have no idea what in the heck is wrong with me, but I sit here with tears literally streaming down my face. For. No. Reason. I just am sooooo sad today. I didn't sleep well and laid awake for several hours despite using all my go to oils and even after resorting to melatonin. It's like every thought it going through my head.

I know I can't say I feel isolated, because I know I've a few people who have offered to chat, but I really have nothing to say other than have a good cry. I'm just so emotional. I know it has to be the meds. My husband is supportive, but just not the type to deal with sadness or emotional outbursts well. He doesn't like chatting about the procedures or events of the cycle. He shows his support in other ways like putting music on so I could take a bath last night, but my getting emotional just stresses him out which stresses me out which makes me cry more.

I went back to acupuncture today and he put like four needles in my stomach and a few in my legs. When I asked why there were so few he said he doesn't specialize in fertility, but those are the main points. Oh really? Why yes, here is my $65 to guesstimate what I need. Again, the meds.

This time my breasts are more tender, my pelvis feels heavy which I can only attribute to a faster building lining. I don't remember feeling this emotional last time. Maybe I need to reread my blog. Maybe I just needed a good cry.

I guess there was no real point to this blog post other than me to journal and get a grip. Oddly enough, I do feel better now. Maybe I can focus on my work.

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