Sometimes God has a different path in store for us. After being diagnosed with POF, I set out on a journey to "repair" my body and get pregnant naturally. Somewhere along the line, although pristine health and self care is my goal, the necessity to "prove" the doctors wrong became less important and we sought the perfect solution to grow our family. We decided on Embryo Donation / Adoption. Read about our journey. Blessings!

17 weeks 1 day

May 27, 2016

Our little bambino is doing well. I was back to my OB today for a checkup. Heart rate was good at 154. We went over my weight gain, which she was happy to see went up a bit, but she wants me to focus on getting more calories. She actually said high carbs, which I wasn't expecting...I was thinking more proteins. My heart did a happy dance to hear "don't be afraid to indulge." What my mind heard? "Ice cream."

Honestly though, I remember last time I didn't start gaining weight until further into my second trimester as well and there was one week in particular it was like I packed on 6 lbs or something. The following week 1/2 lb. I know it's all so variable with water weight, time of day, yada yada yada. I've no worries. I gained enough last time and my son was a healthy weight.

The irony is, I feel like I've gained quite a bit this time. But it's just my belly is much larger than last time. I was looking at photos, and I think I'm about two weeks ahead. I know that's common with second pregnancies, but I didn't expect to pop so soon. Sometimes I get to wondering how large this baby will be. My husband and myself are rather petite, so no one was too surprised our last baby wasn't huge. BUT, these aren't my genetics. This baby could really be any size. It's so funny, but I forget.

Before transfer I always had that lingering fear that this pregnancy would feel "different" or I'd feel differently toward this baby and that isn't the case at all. Instant connection. I know this baby is ours. And, he'll always know who his mommy and daddy and brother are.

My friend who also did EA gave birth two weeks ago. It was such a joy to go see them in the hospital and spend time with them when they got home. Any baby snuggles - nothing better! I get such a chuckle because people commenting on his photo on Facebook say "Oh, he looks just like his mommy." The nurses in the hospital thought he looked just like his daddy. It's so funny people perceive what they want to see, and also I'm a big believe in epigenetics. I'm actually taking a workshop in it next month at a conference. I'm pretty excited!

I had to get my second trimester blood test for the genetic screening and thankfully I read through their paperwork because the nurse forgot to mark the "donor ovum" box. I'm not sure how much that would have screwed up the interpretation, but they were grateful I caught it. I head to the geneticist in two weeks for the anatomy scan and all my fingers and toes are crossed the SCH has resolved and the partial previa has moved up. I've been slowly doing more physically, but still trying not to push it. I'd like more liberties to do some light workouts or longer, more brisk walks. I've always been a very physical and active person and it's therapeutic for me. If not, totally fine, no need to push it, but it'll be reassuring to know it's all better.

My doctor also chatted with me about starting aspirin, but we're holding off until the SCH is cleared. Apparently since I'm an "elderly pregnant" woman and all it should help reduce the risk of preeclamsia. considering my blood pressure has been in the 84/51 to 91/54 range (you'd think I was comatose) I'm fairly certain that won't be an issue, but I'm no doctor. Another of her concerns why she'd like the baby aspirin is in my last pregnancy I was induced for low amniotic fluid. Actually, they wanted to induce me several times, but with persistent daily, then every other day NST and AFI testing, we avoided it for over four weeks. She thinks with an aspirin regimen, it may increase blood flow to the placenta and reduce the risk of low amniotic fluid. If that is the case, then bring it on. I'd rather not have that stress, concern and risk to the baby for the last month.

All in all, our wee one is doing great. I feel him squirming around in there. Sometimes more than others, nothing too consistent. I'm waiting for the punches, kicks and movement on the outside. I know how exciting that will be for my son.

Until next time...God bless!


16 weeks 1 day

May 20, 2016

I realize it's been a long time since I updated. I guess the reasoning is, not too much new stuff to chat about ;) I know they say each pregnancy is different, but this one has royally kicked my tush so far. The exhaustion and nausea were far worse. I'm not sure if it's because I'm older, the meds and supplemental hormones early on, or just this little bean, but I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I started feeling better about a week ago, but have had a few set back days, but all in all, much better.

I'm also growing much faster this time. I feel like I'm definitely starting to show. I compared photos with my son at 16 weeks and I think I'm more around my 18th week marker from last time. The baby was measuring ahead at the last ultra sound so maybe that's part of it...and the fact they say you show sooner on subsequent pregnancies.

At my last appointment his heart rate was around 152, so very good. No ultra sound at that one. I chatted with my OB more about the SCH and the partial placenta previa and she expects good outcomes at my 19 week scan. I'll be in to see her once more before that one - next week - so 17 weeks.

I've cravings for meat and protein this pregnancy. Typically I love sweets, but I can take them or leave them right now. Although, ice cream always sounds good which sounds very stereotypical. I think its the cold...everything cold soothes my stomach, which is exactly what my TCM said to avoid, but at this point, being able to operate day to day is pretty important too.

And emotional...did I mention emotional?! The feel good commercials and Facebook videos get me teary eyed, slights from family or friends leave me obsessing and sad. Par for the course I suppose.

So, no big updates. My son is snuggling his baby brother everynight and singing and talking to him. Absolutely warms my heart. We think we are settled on a name. We've a lot of time to go back and forth though. We're also starting to plan how to maneuver our home to make room for another baby. So much to start to think about.

Loving the journey so far. Very excited to see this wee one growing!

God bless!