March 7, 2015
Well, I suppose it's time for an update. My cycle is strange. What's new, right? I thought I may have ovulated, but my temp went back down. It's had a bit of up and down, but my thought is the initial spike was from a cold. I also spotted for 12 days. Light pink or brown and only when I wiped.
I was a bit emotional this week. I won't lie. There are times I just feel like throwing in the towel, but what am I left with? Ovaries that still don't function? My body is still broken outside of the fertility side of it, so I've really no option than to plug along.
I could always go the HRT route, but I've no faith in that as a long term option. I don't want medication to be what I rely on, and I don't want medication to be what my body relies on to operate correctly. Please know, if you are reading this and on HRT or trying to decide if that is what you want, that is totally ok and you SHOULD do your research. If you opt for HRT it is a wonderful tool and medication and you need to do what is right FOR YOU!! For me, I'm more comfortable with the holistic route as long as my body is responding. If it ever stops, I'll explore HRT as an option.
On the fertility front, we are having more children. I'm convinced biologically, but I've continued my research into fostering to adopt and Embryo Adoption. In fact, my friend who I introduced to the idea of EA is transferring next month!!! The way the path was literally thrown in her face is miraculous, but that is her story to tell. I'm so thrilled and excited for them and pray for a successful transfer so they can hold their take home baby! I also ripped out an article about fostering and fostering to adopt about an informational meeting later this month.
Fostering to adopt seems like such a beautiful concept, but I don't know if I have the heart or stomach to welcome a child into our home just to see them leave. I know you must go into it with the mentality of thinking of it as temporary, but how do I explain to my two year old child their brother or sister may leave. It seems too difficult. The thing that seems even more unbearable than an adoption where the birth mom reconsiders and takes the child back is you may have this child in your custody for years and then they are reconciled. Still an option I am considering because I think so many children need good homes.
Adoption as I've said before is EXPENSIVE!! Even with tax credits, it's still not an option for us at this time.
On my biological fertility front, I was back to TCM today. He asked if I was hurried getting there because it was reflected in my pulse. I was in fact! He also asked if I have been worrying too much.., Yes, indeed. He said he both my pulse and tongue reflected that. To let go of my stress and anxiety (relax relax relax) because it was making me "depressed."
During acupuncture, he added needles to my regiment to help with the depression. A few in my wrists, legs and head. He said it was the "thirteen needles" or "thirteen points." He said it was misleading because it was more than thirteen needles, but thirteen points. Three in my head. Some in my abdomen, some in my wrists and some in my legs. These points are suppose to encourage overall energy, circulation and Qi. The ones in my temples were rather deep and I tried to ask him a question and got instant pressure. Apparently my jaw muscles were pinned up in there. Or maybe he was just sick of my asking questions and jammed some in there to shut me up ;)
I asked more about the points in my legs, the ones that extended from my inner calf to my ankle and he said it was to increase energy. He also showed me how to use my heal to drag it down over those points. He said I should be doing that every night before sleep to help with my kidney and spleen channel. He showed me how to drag my heel over the top of my foot (the bones between the big toe and one next to it) to help with depression of the liver "stress, axiety, etc" every night as well. He said it was the "lazy" way of acupressure but very effective.
The point in my foot area that was extremely tender today was in my Achilles. He had really put it in deep to help with my depression, but that is such a sensitive area! The only point on my abdomen that was tender was over my right ovary. He did the normal five pattern around my naval and then put five across just above my pubic bone. He told me the five points (which I don't remember) but I know the short term for one of them was the "catch" point telling my body to catch an egg and the "come back" point telling my ovaries to start working again. Obviously, those were laymen's terms so I'd understand.
After my session I asked him about my pulse. He said that it was weaker than he wanted, but overall not bad. My right pulse, or Qi, was stronger today than the left, or "blood." This is opposite what it was before, so I'm happy my Qi is improving. The herbs I am taking this week are suppose to help nourish my blood.
So, I was sent home with new herbs, a few new massages to incorporate into my routine, with strict rules of meditating and relaxing.
I'm starting to use some essential oils. I'll put a drop on each foot every night in my lavender magnesium lotion that I'm already using. I'm excited to start learning more and using more essential oils. I know a lot are skeptical of them, but a lot of the medications we use are from plants, which is what these are. By applying them topically or breathing them in aromatically, they go directly into your blood stream.
If you think about it, it's very effective and makes a lot of sense. They don't have nasty biproducts and fillers that a lot of meds do. I just read an article how many hospitals are beginning to incorporate essential oils into their care. I know my sons dentist uses essential oils in the office to calm children. She works with children on the spectrum and it's been proven to calm and settle them in that setting.
So many interesting things I'm learning about. This disease has obviously been a nasty curse, but when I look at the bright side, I've learned so much about how our bodies work, how to keep them healthy, we've changed our diet, gotten rid of toxins like cleaners and personal care products that can cause harm...I feel like we've used it as incentive to make our lives healthier, teach our son to be healthy and make good long term choices. I suppose you have to look at the good with the bad.
My next project is trying to learn how to do indoor composting without a stink. If you've any tips let me know. I've explored two ways to do it, but I'm skeptical... As my son and I have been planting (he has carrots, broccoli, tomato, beans and potatoes growing) I've been really wanting to start our own compost. The organic dirt is pricey and we are literally throwing money out with the trash.
Back to the fertility front, this is the first day in almost two weeks I haven't been spotting. I did take a pregnancy test last week and I was a faint positive (not as dark as before) so my hormones are hopefully getting better. I'll go back to the take one every week or two route until I can get a clear thermal shift and know what's happening.
Every night I pray to "Let Go and Let God" and every day I struggle with that lesson. I was reading Nerida's book the other night and read something that made so much sense. Instead of praying to God to heal me, I need to demand my body to be healed because God already gave me the power to do so. God said in the bible
Mark 3:15 - And to have power to heal sicknesses, and to cast out devils
It was a moment of clarity. I keep pleading with God for a miracle when God in fact has already given me the power to do so. I decided to take a moment to remind my body. Not that I have the authority to heal, but that GOD has declared I am healed...I think it needed a reminder. So do I.
Until next time. God Bless.
Well, I suppose it's time for an update. My cycle is strange. What's new, right? I thought I may have ovulated, but my temp went back down. It's had a bit of up and down, but my thought is the initial spike was from a cold. I also spotted for 12 days. Light pink or brown and only when I wiped.
I was a bit emotional this week. I won't lie. There are times I just feel like throwing in the towel, but what am I left with? Ovaries that still don't function? My body is still broken outside of the fertility side of it, so I've really no option than to plug along.
I could always go the HRT route, but I've no faith in that as a long term option. I don't want medication to be what I rely on, and I don't want medication to be what my body relies on to operate correctly. Please know, if you are reading this and on HRT or trying to decide if that is what you want, that is totally ok and you SHOULD do your research. If you opt for HRT it is a wonderful tool and medication and you need to do what is right FOR YOU!! For me, I'm more comfortable with the holistic route as long as my body is responding. If it ever stops, I'll explore HRT as an option.
On the fertility front, we are having more children. I'm convinced biologically, but I've continued my research into fostering to adopt and Embryo Adoption. In fact, my friend who I introduced to the idea of EA is transferring next month!!! The way the path was literally thrown in her face is miraculous, but that is her story to tell. I'm so thrilled and excited for them and pray for a successful transfer so they can hold their take home baby! I also ripped out an article about fostering and fostering to adopt about an informational meeting later this month.
Fostering to adopt seems like such a beautiful concept, but I don't know if I have the heart or stomach to welcome a child into our home just to see them leave. I know you must go into it with the mentality of thinking of it as temporary, but how do I explain to my two year old child their brother or sister may leave. It seems too difficult. The thing that seems even more unbearable than an adoption where the birth mom reconsiders and takes the child back is you may have this child in your custody for years and then they are reconciled. Still an option I am considering because I think so many children need good homes.
Adoption as I've said before is EXPENSIVE!! Even with tax credits, it's still not an option for us at this time.
On my biological fertility front, I was back to TCM today. He asked if I was hurried getting there because it was reflected in my pulse. I was in fact! He also asked if I have been worrying too much.., Yes, indeed. He said he both my pulse and tongue reflected that. To let go of my stress and anxiety (relax relax relax) because it was making me "depressed."
During acupuncture, he added needles to my regiment to help with the depression. A few in my wrists, legs and head. He said it was the "thirteen needles" or "thirteen points." He said it was misleading because it was more than thirteen needles, but thirteen points. Three in my head. Some in my abdomen, some in my wrists and some in my legs. These points are suppose to encourage overall energy, circulation and Qi. The ones in my temples were rather deep and I tried to ask him a question and got instant pressure. Apparently my jaw muscles were pinned up in there. Or maybe he was just sick of my asking questions and jammed some in there to shut me up ;)
I asked more about the points in my legs, the ones that extended from my inner calf to my ankle and he said it was to increase energy. He also showed me how to use my heal to drag it down over those points. He said I should be doing that every night before sleep to help with my kidney and spleen channel. He showed me how to drag my heel over the top of my foot (the bones between the big toe and one next to it) to help with depression of the liver "stress, axiety, etc" every night as well. He said it was the "lazy" way of acupressure but very effective.
The point in my foot area that was extremely tender today was in my Achilles. He had really put it in deep to help with my depression, but that is such a sensitive area! The only point on my abdomen that was tender was over my right ovary. He did the normal five pattern around my naval and then put five across just above my pubic bone. He told me the five points (which I don't remember) but I know the short term for one of them was the "catch" point telling my body to catch an egg and the "come back" point telling my ovaries to start working again. Obviously, those were laymen's terms so I'd understand.
After my session I asked him about my pulse. He said that it was weaker than he wanted, but overall not bad. My right pulse, or Qi, was stronger today than the left, or "blood." This is opposite what it was before, so I'm happy my Qi is improving. The herbs I am taking this week are suppose to help nourish my blood.
So, I was sent home with new herbs, a few new massages to incorporate into my routine, with strict rules of meditating and relaxing.
I'm starting to use some essential oils. I'll put a drop on each foot every night in my lavender magnesium lotion that I'm already using. I'm excited to start learning more and using more essential oils. I know a lot are skeptical of them, but a lot of the medications we use are from plants, which is what these are. By applying them topically or breathing them in aromatically, they go directly into your blood stream.
If you think about it, it's very effective and makes a lot of sense. They don't have nasty biproducts and fillers that a lot of meds do. I just read an article how many hospitals are beginning to incorporate essential oils into their care. I know my sons dentist uses essential oils in the office to calm children. She works with children on the spectrum and it's been proven to calm and settle them in that setting.
So many interesting things I'm learning about. This disease has obviously been a nasty curse, but when I look at the bright side, I've learned so much about how our bodies work, how to keep them healthy, we've changed our diet, gotten rid of toxins like cleaners and personal care products that can cause harm...I feel like we've used it as incentive to make our lives healthier, teach our son to be healthy and make good long term choices. I suppose you have to look at the good with the bad.
My next project is trying to learn how to do indoor composting without a stink. If you've any tips let me know. I've explored two ways to do it, but I'm skeptical... As my son and I have been planting (he has carrots, broccoli, tomato, beans and potatoes growing) I've been really wanting to start our own compost. The organic dirt is pricey and we are literally throwing money out with the trash.
Back to the fertility front, this is the first day in almost two weeks I haven't been spotting. I did take a pregnancy test last week and I was a faint positive (not as dark as before) so my hormones are hopefully getting better. I'll go back to the take one every week or two route until I can get a clear thermal shift and know what's happening.
Every night I pray to "Let Go and Let God" and every day I struggle with that lesson. I was reading Nerida's book the other night and read something that made so much sense. Instead of praying to God to heal me, I need to demand my body to be healed because God already gave me the power to do so. God said in the bible
Mark 3:15 - And to have power to heal sicknesses, and to cast out devils
It was a moment of clarity. I keep pleading with God for a miracle when God in fact has already given me the power to do so. I decided to take a moment to remind my body. Not that I have the authority to heal, but that GOD has declared I am healed...I think it needed a reminder. So do I.
Until next time. God Bless.
There is an overwhelming majority of patients who find that acupuncture Mississauga treatments are quite comfortable and exceptionally relaxing. Most patients actually fall asleep throughout treatment even though it is a quick procedure.
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